I know you’re not going to believe me, but I wrote an entire post on my birthday (beginning of June). All I had to do was upload a few photos. When I went to do that, it told me that I didn’t have enough space. I talked to my computer guru (AKA my husband) and he fixed it for me. But by the time I got it taken care of, my birthday seemed too far away to write about it. So, now it’s been several months and I haven’t blogged. I really do think about blogging often. I take pictures and go fun places and think, “I should blog about this.” But then I get home and real life hits. And you can see the results…no new blog posts.
But I’ve been thinking about this, and I’ve read other bloggers’ thoughts on this. My life is busy. It’s not busy because I have plans and activities all the time. It’s not busy because I go to work or school. It’s busy because I’m raising two active kids. And I look at my friends with 4 kids and think, “Oh my!” I don’t know how they do it. I’d like to know some day, but not today. Even with two, though, I’m busy.
When it’s nap time I usually sit in my room, fan on, and read or sleep. I used to try to work, but I’ve found that I need that break just as much as the kids need it. So I do dishes after naps while they’re having a snack. Or I do them while supper is cooking. But that me time is important in my day. Can I go a day without it? Sure. But I think I’m a better mom when I have it. So blogging takes a back seat to that.
Sometimes I get bitter that I don’t have the time to do all I want to do. I get upset that these kids take up so much of my time. But, boy, I love these kids. They’re funny, sweet, and slightly weird. My man offers to let me go back to work, but when I sit and think about it, I know there’s no way I could leave my kids. I am grateful that I get to watch them grow up. I’m thankful that I am the one teaching them both the little things (putting on shoes) and the big things (how to treat others). But sometimes when I get overwhelmed with that responsibility I just want to go back to my childless, selfish life.
I’d miss my babies, though. If I get a chance to go out for the morning, I always hurry home because I miss my kids. These two kids who make my busy and exhausted also light up my entire world. So, blogging takes a back seat to them. Cleaning takes a back seat (do not check the dust at my house!). And sometimes me time takes a back seat. But this is the job I’ve been called to do, and it’s worth it.
So, until next time…whenever that may be….