I am blatantly asking for encouragement today. Or for someone to be completely honest with me.
Here’s the deal:
In 2010 I ran my first two 5Ks. Last October I planned to run one but the early pregnancy wore me out too much. I told myself I would run that 5K this year. Then I had a baby. I got back into running, but not as seriously as I should have. Considering I am still healing from childbirth, I cut myself some slack. I had decided I wasn’t running the 5K.
Then I went running this morning. I ran 2 miles in 15 minutes. That’s a 7 1/2 minute mile. That’s good! However, I couldn’t have kept going at that pace. So I got to thinking that if I paced myself a little better maybe I could finish the 5K on Saturday. I am naturally a speed runner. Distance running is hard for me. But I know I can do it.
Here’s my problem with a 5K a week from today…. I am a perfectionist. I want to do well, not just finish, this race. Because I’m not quite where I’d like to be in preparation I might not finish in my goal of under 27 minutes. But I still feel like I should try. I feel that, in the end, I might be more discouraged by not trying than by trying and not meeting my high expectations. A year ago I told myself I would run in this 5K, so I should do it. I can do it.
I have friends running in the Marine Corps marathon next weekend. Maybe if I run a 5K I can pretend I’m running a marathon with them.
So, am I crazy to decide the week before to run a race? Should I do it? Show me some love…or tell me to stay home in my pajamas!